Welcome children of the night to the place of no return where you will find a page with a slightly Vampiric feel even if its rather stereotypical Goth. I like the idea of vampirism, even if its the largely Byronic aspects of it. I know some that feel immortality would be a form of living purgatory, and would be a suitable punishment for the people they hate, and I can see their reasoning in that you become a part of the past, that no matter how adaptable you are, you cannot continue living since life itself becomes a prison of solitude and loneliness as you lose all connections with the present. All that was is lost and all that remains is unrecognizable, unless there are other Vampire's that are from your own time or from a time still understandable to yourself.
The fear of death is strong in one and all, and the will to survive never slackens, but the greatest fear is that there is no afterlife. The power achieved over others is attractive since so few have real power over their own or other's lives. And how good it would be to enjoy the quality of what the world has to offer, to appreciate the arts, philosophy, music and literature, and all those things that are denied to the great majority of us because we are concerned solely with securing enough bread to exist another day and have no leisure for anything else. And what of the morality of it all, the drinking of human blood to survive, has not mankind lived on the flesh and blood of other animals?. Good and evil are not immutable. The difference between them is often a matter of human expedience.
I don't like the Masquarade Live Role Play, as you are basically sitting in a room pretending to be living a life instead of going out and *ACTUALLY* living a life. In more complex terms, it is a form of escapism where the character becomes all that the person would wish to be but lacks in their own personal life, and they play the character in life as well as in the game, for it is the only way in which they will attain social approval from others, so they become an actor who only acts the emotions, never really facing the dangers of life or the pain of existence, but simply hides behind a mask grasping onto illusions of power and importance.
For all the fanciful nature of my Vampiric tastes, at the very least it allows me to dress up really weird and go up to females asking if they fancy a bite. ;-)
If you have any suggestions for my page (apart from the obvious nasty ones) I'd like to know, because I want to put on these pages all that most people would frown upon for being anything relating to silliness or bizarreness like Monty Python just send me the stuff on e-mail.
Well for those of you who care, which probably isn't very much, I'm Richard. I'm also known as the Happy Goth mainly because when I went to university people said I smiled too much, even in those times when my life had gone to shits. After that I adopted the name as I had got sick of meeting Goths calling themselves Vlad or Morticia or any other myriad of vampire names, so to point out their own lack of anything resembling a life and my own annoyance, I always introduce myself as the Happy Goth so as to go against the stereotype.
I call myself a Goth (one of the few who admit it, I'm sorry I don't care what new name you think you should describe it as it's all Goth in the end, and for those who feel it affects their individuality, it doesn't since your an individual already). I don't like how so many Goth's, especially on the net, are trying to define Goth and what Goth is, leave it to the historians in a hundred years time because they'll get it just as wrong as you will, History is but a fiction that has been agreed upon, and that's how I view the definitions of Goth, everyone is trying to define it and none of the definitions will be right because what I consider to be Gothic is not what you consider to be Gothic, and we should agree to disagree and live our own Gothic lives as we see fit and not try to impose our view of it on others or you will be as bad as the Christian Union preaching to the converted. Sorry but I'm too busy living Goth and enjoying it to wonder if I'm living up to some pseudo definition of it. But since I am a Goth I shall have a page telling you about what good Goth places there are to go to in London and perhaps even in Glasgow on my Goth Page. I am not one of the so called goth crowd nor really desire to be, I am a member of a vampyre society but am one of the members who believe most strongly that a vampire society should spend its time going to interesting vampiric places and getting extremely pissed at them. I'm sorry but I like to have fun, not spend my time discussing the immense empty void which people call life and 101 ways to commit suicide whilst giving myself cuts on my arm just to ease the pain. I can't write poetry or stories very well nor really appreciate anything particularly artistic. I have studied as a scientist and a psychologist, the former taught me how to dissect all that was beautiful in the world into its constituent parts whilst forgetting any emergent properties, while the latter taught me how most people in life delude themselves and don't really grasp the joys of life by tying themselves down, by guilt, insecurity or a feeling of debt to others, to a sad existence where they never think of themselves. If you want to be happy in life then you should become a tart with a heart.
I WAS a third year student doing computing at Glasgow University and WAS doing a project on RenderMan, which was 3D imaging and rendering, but I'm over that now!. Its was hard! so I consoled myself by spending as much time in the student Union as possible which was the Queen Margaret Union as the G.U.U. is CRAP!!!!!. I was never much the one for hard work but if you offer me a pint I won't say no and if you offer me two pints I might even be nice to you!.
At the moment, bizarre as it may seem, I teach people in industry how to program Robots such as Asea Brown Boveri's IRC5, S4C+, S4C, S4P, S4, S3, S2 & trallfa (and when I'm bored I program them to do things like play Noughts & Crosses and navigate Maze's!), also how to use Datalogic laser scanners (bar code readers) and Conveyor belt systems. It can be very interesting but it can also be very boring as well but I'm getting paid well so I don't care. Is it gothic? Is it Fuck!.
Some of my students have found and will find my page (namely two Steps fan's from Hella Manufacturing, you know who you are) and all I can say is this.
You may laugh now, but just wait until your in *my* classroom...
;-)
May God have mercy upon your soul!
Let me make you understand a few things, I was brought up a Roman Catholic, which is to be expected if your parents were brought up in Spain. From an early age it just didn't seem right, some of the things were hypocritical, some of them nonsensical, and some of them just plain silly. I thought, there are so many religions in the world that picking one would be like picking fruit in a supermarket, you go for the one that tastes the nicest and suits you, and normally turn away from anything too exotic or strange looking. So its not really a case of which one is right but more which one is easiest for you to believe.
So I rejected it, but even though you can try to reject the teachings of your youth, you cannot escape them, they still have an effect on your life. But since there are so many religions, which is right? one, two, all of them or none of them. Who knows, I don't, but that is because there is no proof, Christians say they can prove the existence of Jesus Christ by documents from the time, but that merely proves the existence of a man and not the Son of God. I am a scientist, and without proof I cannot believe in God or against God. So we have the ultimate conundrum. If I lead an evil life I might go to Hell, or nothing might happen at all, I just become dust on the winds of time. But also If I lead a totally pious life, I might go to Heaven or its the dust again, so my solution was to find a compromise. To have as much fun as possible, do as much as possible, and achieve most of what I want from life, but without hurting too many people (as there are always situations where you are forced to hurt people), and also helping those who cannot help themselves, mainly by trying to sort their minds out.I'm sorry but I cannot see how anyway anybody can call themselves a Christian and a Goth, its a contradiction in terms, a culture based on the exploration of mind and the pleasures of the body, all linked to darkness and all that is evil, yet still trying to have a moral code by the end of it and go to heaven. It is not possible to resolve this. For I see no way for the two to go together without the dilution of both. To emphasize this, read the below passage from The Bible which describes most of the Goths I know and also shows the reasons why you cannot be a Goth and a Christian.
God's anger is revealed from heaven against all the sin and evil of the people whose evil ways prevent the truth from being known. God punishes them, because what can be known about God is plain to them, for God himself made it plain. Ever since God created the world, his invisible qualities, both his eternal power and his divine nature, have been clearly seen; they are perceived in the things that God has made. So those people have no excuse at all! They know God, but they do not give him the honour that belongs him, nor do they thank him. Instead, their thoughts have become complete nonsense, and their empty minds are filled with darkness. They say they are wise, but they are fools; instead of worshipping the immortal God, they worship images made to look like mortal man or birds or animals or reptiles. And so God has given those people over to do the filthy things their hearts desire, and they do shameful things with each other. They exchange the truth about God for a lie; they worship and serve what God has created instead of the Creator himself, who is to be praised for ever! Amen. Because they do this, God has given them over to shameful passions. Even the women pervert the natural use of their sex by unnatural acts. In the same way the men give up natural sexual relations with women and burn with passion for each other. Men do shameful things with each other, and as a result they bring upon themselves the punishment they deserve for their wrongdoing. Because those people refuse to keep in mind the true knowledge about God, he has given them over to corrupted minds, so that they do the things that they should not do. They are filled with all kinds of wickedness, evil, greed, and vice; they are full of jealousy, murder, fighting, deceit, and malice. They gossip and speak evil of one another; they are hateful to God, insolent, proud, and boastful; they think of more ways to do evil; they disobey their parents; they have no conscience; they do not keep their promises, and they show no kindness or pity for others. They know that God's law says that people who live in this way deserve death. Yet, not only do they continue to do these very things, but they even approve of others who do them.
But isn't it strange to ponder the goths who draw such influences from the bible, even their names, e.g. The Nephilim, Seraphim Twin; Inkubus Sukkubus with their witches and vampires, the former category due to the church and the latter in the Bible. Karl Marx stated that religion is the opium of the masses, but can darkness and the following of evils ways, of which goth can claim itself a place, be considered to be the opium of the anti-masses.
How many of us are willing to go beyond the morals that were instilled in us since birth, go beyond the point of no return and take that ultimate step where social responsibility is meaningless, guilt is but a word and life is simply the execution of any and all random impulses. They say that Disney films touches the good in all of us, but what if that goodness has been driven out, what horrors of existence beyond any known comprehension can turn the angel into the devil and the child into the serial killer. How we cling to religion for comfort and how many of us unbelievers will pray to a god when some horror has entered our life, but before scoffed at the very thought. How hypocritical we all are and how constrained by our own mind. Pity yourself for no-one else will pity you.
I'm 5'8, wear black (Tasselled leather jacket, jeans and DMs) and have natural black hair ( what's left of it! ). I'm straight, which is unfashionable for a goth, but hey I don't follow fashion I follow music. When I go to the Slimelight I sometimes wear a purple tapestry coat, red waistcoat, black PVC trousers, white frilly shirt, and a five minute eyeliner job. I've been described as having sexy/piercing brown eyes which can see into your very soul and a hypnotic voice, one beautiful girl described me as genuine....I'm still trying to figure that one out, but I liked the sound of it!. If you spend any time with me you will end up telling me your life story. Mental barriers don't last long with me, perhaps its because I'm a Pisces or because I'm normally pissed. Who knows and who cares, not me. I'm a cynical Bastard but with reason to be so if you don't like it sod off!.
